I'm still here!
Lately I've been dealing with some stuff. Not just life, but family issues and personal battles as well. For a while now,I've found myself asking "why me God" "Where are you?" "Why are these things happening in my life?". Now before I go any further down that path, let me tell you- my issues aren't life threatening. We are all healthy and are truly blessed. However, there have been a few forks in the road that have left me thinking "Come on God.... seriously?" and not really finding the answer. But here's the thing- I wasn't waiting for the answer. I was so consumed with the bad stuff I couldn't see through it. I wasn't "seeking" him...I was waiting for him to seek me...(Yeah, just so you know, that's not really how it works..)
And lately I've been seeking Him. In prayer and in tears.
And here's the awesome thing... He's been there the whole time.
This morning in worship I was lost. Not as in I didn't know where I was,but lost in praise. Lost in Him. I can't remember the last time I felt that way. I remembered how great He is and how no matter where I go and for how long I think I am lost, He is always there..just waiting for me.
And is always asking me to take my "junk" to him.
Hand it all over and just put it on him. I found myself in tears.
I was in awe of Him.
And all I wanted to do was praise Him.
It was awesome.
Seriously....AWESOME.
***I missed the big scrap day yesterday in GR and missed you girls so much! From reading the blogs today, looks like you guys had a great time!!
See you in June!! XOXOXO
4 comments:
We missed you too boopsie, I didn't have a soul around to massage my aching feet;) Seriously, I missed you and I'm bummed I won't get to see you at the June one...I'm thinking of you all the time, hope things clear now for you and you can find some peace.
Hey....I'm hilly0013 from SiS. Can't wait to meet you in June. :) Wish you could have been there on Saturday, we had a blast....
Hillary.
Hi, H! So sorry to hear that things have been tough. I hope that the light starts shining brightly for you soon.
Can't wait to see you in a few weeks! I've missed you!
Heather, I'll be praying for you in this season....thanks for your message about the 16th. I would LOVE to join you, but it's Career Day at K's school and I'm speaking....next time for sure!
N.
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