Quiet house..Deep thoughts.

It's pretty quiet in our house tonight.
Daniel went to Gma and Gpa's house
for the next couple nights. He gets so
excited when its time to stay over night
at their house. He really loves it there.
He is blessed to have such awesome
Grandparents. All of them. And he has
3 sets of Grandparents.(not counting
great-grandparents) They all are
fabulous. He is one lucky little guy!
I love that little guy with all my soul,
however, I love having time to just
catch up. Tomorrow I plan on spending
the day doing some housework and hopefully
getting in some scrapbooking! Keep
your fingers crossed for me!
Tonight at Daniel's bedtime we both got a little sad.
Bedtime in our house is very a special time.
We read, tickle,talk, pray, sing.
Its our favorite time of the day.
Just the 3 of us.
Really LOVE that time of day.
LOVE him, Love US.
The 3 Musketeers.

Daniel wants a baby.
He asks for one everyday.
When people ask him when
he's going to get a baby sister/brother
or asks us when #2 is on the way,
he tells them he's waiting for Jesus
to bring us one.
And ever night before bed,
he asks Jesus to bring us a baby.
Then he'll ask us..
"Mommy and Daddy-Did you remember
to ask Jesus to bring us a baby?"
M&D:"Yes Daniel, we remembered.."
Daniel:"Do you think he heard us?"
M&D: "Yes buddy, he hears everything.
We have to have faith in Jesus.
He has a special time for us and a special plan for us."
Daniel:"Ok, but I think i'll ask him again
just in case he didn't hear us...."
This breaks my heart.
We can give him anything he wants.
Toys, books, love, hugs, vacations,
security, anything his heart desires.
This is the only thing that isn't in our control..
I remember what seemed like forever-
praying and wishing and hoping and dreaming
for a baby. To have our own "family"
Being told by numerous Doctors,
"I'm sorry, there is no reason you're
not pregnant, but I don't think it
will ever happen."
Many years of tears,
many years of wondering why?
Watching so many other couples having babies,
watching their families grow..
What was wrong with us?
Were we supposed to have
a family?
So now we ask..
Is our family complete?
How can we complain about
not being pregnant again when
we were so blessed to have Daniel?

I just turn to God.
believe He has a plan for our family.
Make sure he knows-
no matter what,
we will always love Him.
We will always trust in Him.
And we thank Him everyday
for the little boy he brought into
our lives.
Especially after so many
people told us to give up hope.
He always had a plan.
Believe in Him.
Trust in Him.
Love Him.