Tuesday...

I haven't wrote in the past week.
I've been dealing with my insurance
company and my accountant over
the loss of my business.
Having to go over the things I've lost
seems to bring the hurt right back to the surface.
I have the pictures from the fire and
tried to scrapbook them this weekend,
however, I just can't bring myself to do it yet.

Our weekend started out rocky
After just a little over 6 months-Steve's Uncle Daniel
lost his fight with Cancer.
He will be greatly missed.
I only knew him for 10 years,
however, I never hesitated
to call him my uncle as well.
Uncle Dan was special to us in so many ways.
We will miss his laughter, his great business advice,
the way he talked to the TV during NFL games
and attending many many high school
football games together(some I was sure
we'd get kicked out of...he wasn't a big fan of Ref's..)
He also is special to our family because he was
one of the people our son was named after.
We were fortunate enough over Thanksgiving
weekend to travel to Florida to spend the weekend
with Uncle Dan and Aunt Martha. We were able to
spend some time catching up, decorating their house
for the holidays, laughing and thanking
God for just being together. We thank God
for being able to be with him and make
them a part of a very special holiday.
We will miss you Uncle Dan, you'll always
have a special place in my heart and the
memories of you will be with our family
forever!
At church on Sunday our Pastor said something
that really stuck in my head.
The tornado's that swept through
Florida over the weekend claimed several lives.
He spoke of not only the tornado's
but Hurricane Katrina and 9-11.
He asked a great question- Does it change us?
Does losing someone we love or watching this
awful situation change us?
make us more forgiving, loving, patient?
Or do we just go back to our normal life.
I'm committed to having it change me. I'm often quick
to hold a grudge, to be angry with someone over
something that really seems silly looking back.
I'm committed to forgiving as I'm forgiven.
To be patient, kind, and to walk in love.
What if the person I was angry with or holding
a grudge over was gone tomorrow?
If I don't forgive them and let it go,
it doesn't hurt anyone but me.
We don't always have tomorrow.